Psalm 139

For gosh sake, it's in the title, "smacked upside the head....." and yet sometimes I still don't get it! I have had some rough times the past few days and things were just piling on top of my shoulders like bricks. At one point, I honestly felt like I was going insane or that my head was going to explode due to this massive pressure and just what felt like, blow after blow to my life. Well, my husband, Chris, always feeds our baby Liam his night time bottle, so he tells me to join them. I was sitting there in the darkened room, watching them, and being grateful, but stressed, when this quiet thought came into my head, clear as day, but not my own and said, "These are worldly things and you need to let them go." And I felt so sure it was the Holy Spirit and so calm as I heard it. And I let it all go. For about 5 minutes because I am human and I totally suck at letting it all go...BUT when I remember those words and relax, I get this feeling of calm. Since that day other events have unfolded that cause the events of that day to have meaning and make sense. It is amazing to watch. Like dominos falling. My pastor said recently, when you are filled up with God's love there is no room in your heart for fear. It is so true!
Now the reason I mentioned Psalm 139 is because at two different churches, on two different day that Psalm came up. I found that neat. The part that touched my life, right now, would be verse 16 "Your eyes have seen my actions; in your book they are all written; my days were limited before one of them existed." God knows the plan, I don't have to and I need to take comfort in that and LET IT GO!